Saturday, December 6, 2008

Clogged With Wishes

Saturday night...surprise, surprise :).

So, like most of the time, I think Elisabeth Elliot says what I'm thinking a lot better than I can put it into words. Here it is:

"I was wishing that my wishes were what God wished, and if my wishes were not what God wished, I wished that I could wish that my wishes would go away, but the wishes were still there." Elisabeth Elliot, passion and purity

It's amazing to me that pursuing God's will can be peacful and quiet one day then loud and complicated the next. After hearing these words from Elisabeth Elliot I realized why in the last few days I have felt weak and distant from God. As soon as I say Yes to his calling I simultaneously receive wishes and desires in my heart that cause me to reconsider the direction I'm heading. That doesn't mean that I desire God's will any less, just that circumstance has allowed me to see it differently in my life. The problem? you may ask. The problem is that I begin to wonder how God can work his will in me if I am clogged by these wishes and desires of my own. Now as I write this, it is obvious that the conclusion is that I should rest in God's peace regardless of my circumstance. This is true, but the wishes ARE still there; day and night; hour by hour. I must take all of my wishes and desires captive to be hidden under the authority of Christ, and wait patiently for the Lord to lead me through life in his will. I must rest in a place where true joys are to be found.

Almighty God, You alone can bring into order
the unruly wills and affections of sinners:
Grant you people grace to love what you command
and desire what you promise;
That, among the swift and varied changes of the world,
Our hearts may surely there be fixed where true joys are to be found;
through Jesus Christ our Lord,
who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit,
One God, now and forever. Amen
(The book of common prayers)

4 comments:

Alexandra Liner Walker said...

i love you so much. thank you for sharing that Elliot quote.... it is far better at saying how i feel also.

you are greatly loved, and i hope to talk to you soon!
<><

Cheyenne Haste said...

Sweet Kasey,
I love your honesty. If any Christian were to say they felt any differently than this they would be lying. You are a new creation in the eyes of the Father, but practically day to day your old sinful nature is still passing away. The Spirit and the flesh will always be in conflict, but "praise be to God who gives up victory in Christ Jesus." You are being conformed to the image of Christ and it is a wonderful priveledge to see it unfold. Love you! :) ~Cheye

Reilly said...

that elisabeth elliot quote made my brain hurt. bad.

Brittney said...

Aw, thanks so much! I never realized how large the blogging world is! Ha. We love you and will hopefully see you soon!