Saturday, February 28, 2009

He set my feet upon a I know!

So I'm just gonna say it-I love to cry..there... I admit it! Sometimes nothing feels better than an outpouring of emotion that has been waiting to come out for days, weeks, maybe even months! Trust me, this doesn't happen often, but when I do feel that rush of emotion spiraling through my chest it is absolutely vital to my soul that this rush pour out of my face. I believe the most rewarding part of this emotional force is that in the moment I feel absolutely vulnerable to the Love of my savior. All too often I take his Love for granted, but the more I recognize my doubt and fear the more I feel his embrace.

Last weekend I found myself looking for answers, wondering if I could ever be confident in knowing who I am in Christ; Wishing I could speak and act with the boldness of the Holy Spirit; Praying for peace and begging for Joy. It was in these moments when the words of this wonderful psalm began to cycle through my head:

" I waited patiently for the Lord; he inclined to me and heard my cry. 2He drew me up from the pit of destruction, out of the miry bog,and set my feet upon a rock, making my steps secure. 3He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God. Many will see and fear, and put their trust in the Lord." Psalm 40:1-3

This absolutely crushed my fear and humiliated my doubt. I waited, and faithfully my Lord answered. Almost immediately after recognizing my impatience he clutched my heart and pulled me to safety in his arms. He set my feet on a rock and put a new song in my mouth; a song of praise to him, who loves unconditionally! He literally put a song in my mouth, and I went to bed singing it on Sunday night:

Jesus , Lover of my soul
Jesus, I will never let you go
You carried me from the miry clay
set my feet upon a rock and now I know
I love you, I need you
Though my world fall I'll never let you go
My savior, my closest friend
I will worship you until the very end